to put it another way/i would give all metaphors
in return for one word/ drawn out of my breast like a rib
for one word/ contained within the boundaries/ of my skin
but apparently this is not possible
and just to say - i love
i run around like mad/ picking up handfuls of birds
and my tenderness/ which after all is not made of water
asks the water for a face/ and anger/ different from fire
borrows from it/ a loquacious tongue
(zbigniew herbert)

there is no day so long it can’t be made better by coming home to someone this happy to see me (no, I swear those are happy noises).

:abbie: :puppies forever: :a l w a y s: :mark rothko: :nothing to prove: :colourful objects saved: :the only ones who matter: :not ronan go away ronan: :guardians of the galaxy: :i still can't believe i paid to see this:

so i finally read allegiant today & can i just say that i am way less upset about [insert major spoiler here] than i am about the fact that there is like, NO amar/george fic?!? on THE WHOLE INTERNET??!?!?

I EVEN LOOKED ON FANFICTION.NET AND MOST OF THE TIME I TRY TO FORGET THAT PLACE EVEN EXISTS.

:YOU HAVE A CANON MULTI-RACIAL QUEER COUPLE WITH CLEARLY AMAZING BACKSTORIES AND YOU'RE WRITING STEREK AUS: :WTF INTERNET YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS: :allegiant: :literally i set down the book right after george showed up burst into the bathroom where @crackdkettle was showering and was like: :SO AMAR AND GEORGE ARE LIKE TOTES BOYFRIENDS RIGHT?!: :AND THEY ARE: :AND THERE'S NO FIC: :?!?!?!?!: :i also want lynn/marlene aus because OBVS but i didn't have my hopes set so high for those to you know actually exist: :amar/george:

the thing about finally being on anti-anxiety meds/anti-depressants is like, how much of the residual crap is due to maybe needing a higher dosage and how much is just because i lived without meds for so long that i’m stuck in the habit of not being able to deal with things/having a huge guilt complex about literally everything?

(i guess this is what people have therapists for?

but no thank you.

never happening.)

:depression and anxiety cw: :and by never happening i mean never happening again because reasons i don't really wanna talk about: :but yeah anyway just rambling but maybe if i write this down i'll somehow have an epiphany or something: :actual scenes from my actual daily life: :about me: :ruby sparks: :t h i s: :words:

crackdkettle:

Is it me or does Mark Ruffalo get more and more attractive every year? Like when he’s eighty he’ll probably be too beautiful for human eyes to behold.

:this though: :mark ruffalo: :p l e a s e: :things that are perfect: :the internet is my favourite: :y e s: :headcanon: accepted: :the internet is my favourite: :the avengers are ruining my life:

i just started week 8 of the zombies, run! 5k training, and i still don’t understand how i’m supposed to concentrate on running when i’m having sam!feelings.

:ohdanielle: :this is entirely your fault fyi: :zombies run: :omg so excited to start on the other app next week though:

terry farrell in her ds9 wedding dress at star trek: las vegas.

terry farrell in her ds9 wedding dress at star trek: las vegas.

:omfg: :jadzia dax: :terry farrell: :star trek: :ds9: :just leave me here; i will be fine: :(life goals: own a dress that makes my boobs look this good):

I think we can all agree that while the AO3 is one of the best things to ever happen to fandom, the fact that you still can’t leave kudos on individual chapters is just absurd at this point.

:ao3: :archive of our own: :ilu but come on:
My uncle has been sending me pictures of all the remembrances taking place in Warsaw this weekend, but this is by far the most precious to me. I know many of you have heard me mention Jerzy, and know how important he was to me in the short time I spent with him. He was the youngest recipient of the Virtuti Militari for his service during WWII, having joined the underground forces in 1943 at the age of 13. The Nazis hanged his father in Gdynia, murdered his mother in Auschwitz, & killed his sister while she was serving as a messenger/spy during the Warsaw Uprising, which began 70 years ago today. Jerzy fought on, losing an eye to a head wound; after the operation, he sneaked out before being released to search for his sister, and ultimately, to rejoin his battalion. He was captured after the Uprising and spent six months in captivity before being liberated by the British. He was, as his gravestone says, Wielki Bohater - a great hero. But mostly he was a boy who fought back - for his country, for his family, for himself. He was kind and gentle and funny and brilliant. He loved and was loved. He shared his stories with me, and I am who I am today because of him. Pamiętam, Jerzy. Always.

My uncle has been sending me pictures of all the remembrances taking place in Warsaw this weekend, but this is by far the most precious to me. I know many of you have heard me mention Jerzy, and know how important he was to me in the short time I spent with him. He was the youngest recipient of the Virtuti Militari for his service during WWII, having joined the underground forces in 1943 at the age of 13. The Nazis hanged his father in Gdynia, murdered his mother in Auschwitz, & killed his sister while she was serving as a messenger/spy during the Warsaw Uprising, which began 70 years ago today. Jerzy fought on, losing an eye to a head wound; after the operation, he sneaked out before being released to search for his sister, and ultimately, to rejoin his battalion. He was captured after the Uprising and spent six months in captivity before being liberated by the British. He was, as his gravestone says, Wielki Bohater - a great hero. But mostly he was a boy who fought back - for his country, for his family, for himself. He was kind and gentle and funny and brilliant. He loved and was loved. He shared his stories with me, and I am who I am today because of him. Pamiętam, Jerzy. Always.

:pamiętam: :powstanie warszawskie: :polska walcząca: :jerzy bartnik: :balancing history books up on my head: :polska: :warszawa: :i hate this musical so much but godddddd this cast: :tbf i saw a pretty terrible production of it but still: :into the woods: :i will definitely at least consider paying money to see this: